Don't be an ....

On my wall at work you will find from time to time quotes or sayings I have found to be profound or just truth.

Currently one say this:

 ASKHOLE – A person who constantly asks your advice , yet does the opposite of what you told them.

Now that being said I feel like an askhole in my life sometimes. You see when I finally reach my breaking point I have come to recognize the need for help.  Once I receive the help I am good to go for a while because it is easy to take direction when you feel your back against a wall and you don’t know which way to go.

Here in lies the problem, after I take the advice for a while, life gets a little better. Then something in my head says maybe we can go back to the way I was doing it before, things are better now.

Now if you’re paying attention you just got smacked with a boat load of crazy talk. Insanity in fact. You can define insanity as doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

So I’m going to take your good advice fix myself up, and then I’m going to go back to my  same old insane plan and expect that I can now manage it without following your direction, or better yet I’ll tweak your advice so it is more comfortable to me.

If you are reading this and thinking OMG… that’s me. Repeat after me. Hi, My name is ….. and I am an askhole. You see there is power in owning your personal shortcomings, because once I put them out there I can never take them back and now you all know. Now you all can help hold me accountable.

I've come to wonder if there really is such a thing as a plateau. I am starting to believe that you are either moving forward or moving back. Standing still just doesn't seem possible when I look at it.

Lets take my health.  Lost a bunch of weight following directions. Stopped losing weight, not the directions fault, mine, I stopped moving forward. I stopped following directions like I was supposed to and I started tweaking a plan that needed nor could it afford tweaks at this point.  I told myself it was a plateau but it wasn't it was just me moving backwards. So to not be an askhole I need to adjust my question.  I need to keep working on and figuring out how to accept what I cannot change. 

I've got big goals and I cannot afford to leave it up to me to figure out how to get there.

I’m not going to share these goals just yet because I need to ask for some help to set realistic attainable goals, using the direction I have been given.